in constant fear of not being good enough. Not good enough for dance, for a job, not pretty enough, not thin enough, not interesting enough.. and most importantly.. not good enough for any guy.

Day by day this holds me back. I pray about it.. I ask God to help me understand and comprehend that if He loves me.. that’s all that should matter.. Of course I know this.. I have been taught this.. but the sad thing is that I truly do not believe it.  People can tell me over and over again.. and yet it doesn’t stick.

I know I am looking for satisfaction in areas and people that I shouldn’t.  I understand that these things and people wont fully satisfy me.. but I still strive for them and believe that anything will feel better than where I am at right now.

And in ending this.. I do not have some life-changing revelation..

It doesn’t go away.